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not prepared
this is my first entry from my new phone!
all I want to say is i'm totally exhausted. seriously, no one can prepare a person for the sheer exhaustion of having a newborn. half the time I feel inadequate, like i'm making mistakes, and like she hates me. but then if she cries and I pick her up, she'll lay her head on my chest and its the best feeling ever.
except for last night...
mike went to west virginia on wednesday night. my mom and sis kept me company for two nights, but last night it was just us. i'm fuckin beat. she woke up at 11pm and refused to go back to sleep. twice I put her in her bassinet and let her cry for like 25 mins on her own. i'm just sooo sleepy. and nothing is wrong with her.
and I have a breast iinfection which is sooooooo painful. but I still have to breastfeed, so its like killing me. and I think the infection spread to the other breast too. its crazy.
and i'm a little pissed at mike bc i'd LOVE a break and he's been gine for days. he called last night (or at 2am) and asked if he could stay an extra day to fish. I said he could but when he called back around 4:30am and he could hear her crying and the tiredness in my voice....just what was he thinking?
shit - i'm so damn tired I can't fall asleep. this is fuckin great!.....
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