The Re
The Re was, by my sober account, pretty good. There were some hit and misses going on.
I picked VNM from the airport first...which Bleek can tell you that I was apprehensive about. (See I'm stuck between telling it how it is and sugar coating....and since I don't feel like hurting anyones feelings while being totally preggo, I'll just stick to sugar coating) :sigh:
So I got here, and after a bit of figuring things out, we went to TGIF. Then picked up SB. That girl really honestly is my sister from another mother (maybe father too unless my daddy really IS cuban after all - lol). Figuring we had more time, I mistakenly drove all the way back to dc and then back to baltimore, while waiting for probably the biggest epic fail of the whole re.
CR1 sends a text, oooo about 17 mins before his plane was suppose to land saying he wasn't coming, and this was after waiting 4 hours for him. VNM says she wouldn't have bothered to tell the rest of us either....but being considerate is being considerate. I mean, yeah CR1 did break some toes and had an epic fight with an escaltor and a carry on bag....but I do believe that VNM was highly pissed and aggitated because he didn't show.
But the parade must continue...
Baby decided he wanted to go to sleep at about 9:15. So I was literally wrestling with Baby the whole night. Lemme tell you NOT FUN. But I wanted to be like, the BEST hostest...so we went to LOVE THE CLUB. I honestly had to sit down the whole night....baby was not happy. I mean, yay to the cop hook-up for getting us in for free. And SB was a great co-pilot in gettin the parking free (it was 30$)...huge yay!
After, everyone was hungry. SB and Bleek were being happy in love in the back and me and VNM yelled and fussed in the front. I'm not even sure if she was drunk or taking out aggression....I dunno. But I decided that I was NOT going to deal with it, so I left for the night.
Next day we kinda just ate, slept, and watched movies. A much better day. I was going to send them to the strip club, because I couldn't handle doing another late night...but we just stayed home. I was unaware that some wanted to do sight-seeing....but when I asked "what do you want to do today" and the response was "well I dunno..."...... So I didn't find out until after the fact :shrug: I guess I got an F- in mind reading.
I just really loved being able to see Bleek again...I swear I felt like I met SB before, because it was like we literally picked up a convo or something. Love her...now working on gettin her a job down here --- baby needs an Aunt that is so AMAZING like her! Plus her and my sister....oh stories would be written about those two if they lived in the same city!! Lol.
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But now I'm like...sick. Like I got really really sick. I pretty much have been in bed since Tuesday. I went to work last monday sick...was off Tuesday and took off Wednesday. I did go for like 7 hours Thursday, but my Lieutant sent me home...I was sick sick.
I dunno, I am going to lunch with Husband in about 1 hour. I was going to tell him about everything. Like everything.
I'm just at a real confusing place. I don't know what my issue is, and that no matter who I'm with, I just can't be happy. Yeah, Douglass is great. I'll never take that from him. But what I did was WRONG. I really broke Husbands heart....and I feel so horrible about it. I honestly deserve nothing less than for that baby to somehow miraculously be Husbands (how is that for irony, huh?). Douglass is now to the point where he is gonna leave. I will not uttter a word about that...refuse to.
Anyway - I've gotta get my head right. Tomorrow I have this REALLY big doctors appointment about this highblood pressure (which I do have and is HORRIBLE during pregnancy). What I'm trying to do, is not get put on permanent bed rest for the last 3 months of this pregnancy...because it's like..yeah that serious. And to be quite honest, I'm completely terrified....because I don't have the time saved to take time off work...so I'd basically be taking leave without pay.
And it's freaking me out...
Jeter - Monday, Sept. 28, 2009