Ms. Dell and I were talking, really about random stuff, and she said "...my son isn't married like you guys are, which I think he needs to do."
So I corrected her and told her that we were, in fact, NOT married. She said she had no idea, because Michael and I do call each other husband and wife. We also act very much like a married couple...well maybe like a loving family. Something along those lines. ((Even when I had Kennedy, the doctors/nurses did not give us the correct paperwork to fill out - it's different if you are not married. Everyone just assumed...yay! ))
So her and I had this like 15 minute dialouge. I told her that we had originally planned to be married in October of this year. (And thinking about that made me really sad. Like had I done the right thing and been faithfull.....I'd be getting married in less than one month ---- well in theroy anyway. I still believe Mike and I had to go through what we went through to be together and appreciate each other).
Ms. Dell was really pushing for us to go ahead and just go to justice of the peace and just get married. Funny thing, Mike and I were talking about it last weekend, and almost just went and did it. But, alas and obviously, we didn't.
He still has this thing that everyone in our family has to be ther eand it has to be one of those types of events. I think it would be kinda neat if it was just us 3 (me, him, and K). I mean, don't get me wrong...I'd love for the wedding at the site we chose. I'd love for all my family and friends to come and have a fun party.
But I do think because of the personal struggles that Mike and I have gone through and our love for each other, it should just be us.
And then we'll have an big ass party and rock out!!!!
But I still can't help but feel a little sad that I could have almost been a wife really soon...............
Doggy Days - Wednesday, Sept. 30, 2009